We are who we are because of what we take in
Growing up i would always feel safe when my father was at home, i would sleep through the night knowing that as long as he was around I was really safe
The Times he was away would be terrible, i could hear the leaves fall and count every foot step outside fearing since my ”super man ” was away.
When I got born again i started to put this on God but the amazing thing was He never left or even took a trip, He was always around and that sealed my safety
As i become older fearing to sleep was the least of the worries, there was academic,diseases, friends..I.mean the world is a scary place but the beauty was I had a great Father looking out for me,i was always sure He got me,even when things didnt go as planned i knew He has a plan and it’s definately for my good.
But now I long for that trust that had no borders, the knowing that God has me,the not over thinking things when they go hay wire but trusting that my father must have a plan, but it brings up so many questions of what happened ..
Most of us Christians are like that,we think some things are too small for God and try to handle them our selves, we even infer our expectations to husbands, friends, even parents and when these disappoint we think it’s God who has disappointed us yet we looked for our own solutions
I long to go back to the foolish trust i had, when I asked God to make it rain when it was too hot and moved with an umbrella knowing that He would come through for me, when we would pray that God bring back water so you didn’t have to go to the well and u opened the tap and waited on God.
When sickness would come your way and you just smiled through knowing He had a plan. I long for that trust and am going for it. Come along and experience joy like never before where as my husband says, ” you fight, you sink but when you relax and let God ,you will float and life will be good.
