My Why

Many a times am asked why I do things the way I do, why I want to go an extra mile for anyone that needs it and more so if you are my friend or family or friends family.

I have been called wierd by some that don’t understand me, others think I must have a motive whereas some think and call it Kajanja

Lately I believed people that I was doing too much, you have to think about yourself I was told and the last one that made me desire to change was … you went all that way as if you were the only option available. Honestly that was the last straw for me , I need to change, I need to get well from this kajanja disease

I tried to look the other way when I heard someone was unwell , I even was unavailable one day for someone that needed me but it ate at me, I felt I had disappointed someone and myself but its what needed to be done

I went on with this for over a month and it all seemed okay, I was without kajanja and life was moving on until I heard a voice so clear..

Why did you stop doing the things I told you to? Why did you listen to people instead of Me , I healed you so that you make life easy for anyone that needs it. Then it all came back to me

Am not a stranger to hospital beds, I have had my fair share of tests, MRI, ECHO, ECG and so many more, I had moved to so many hospitals, but now I was well and my healing never came from any of them it came from God. After all had failed He came through for me, in the coldness of the Mri room when I was scheduled for an operation on Monday He healed me.

But my healing wasn’t my own, it was to bring healing to others and here I was letting peoples words get me off my course..from that day I woke up, I will run around, I will do whatever I can for Him as long as I have breath.

I do all I do with strength that can’t be my own, I will run around all day and not be the tired I should be simply because He renews me.. recently a friend asked me why after all I had done that day I looked fresh and I had no answer but clearly He refreshes .

And this made me realize many times we stop doing something because a person feels its not nice , or start doing because another has said something else.. but who is your audience, when we start working for the audience of one ,the one who truly called us then we will be happy regardless of what the world says 😉.